Leaving day

February 1st was my planned leaving day. This day, at the moment, was one of the scariest days of my life. I had planned my escape with my the day prior and we had the whole day planned. At around 6am Bekm decided to wake up and stay wide awake. It's like he knew we were on a mission. I woke up and started packing mine and bekms nessesary belongings for a few days until I could go back to the house and get the remaining. After packing a few bags I got scared and hid the bags just in case DB came home from work (I never knew when and where he'd be) and catch me moving. I locked all the doors and sat on the couch with my baby, watching cartoons, until my mom and sister came to help me. We packed as much stuff as we could and left. My sister went to school and my mom and I headed straight to the courthouse to file for divorce. After I filed, which took I think 5 or 6 hours, (never want to go through that process again) we headed to the police station to get DB served with his papers. DB had no idea any of this was happening until he got off work and I was supposed to be at his parents for dinner. I didn't answer the phone, instead I sent him a long text telling him I filed and not to call me until he was calm and could talk about this. Instead of waiting, I got called over 20x and so many text messages you can't even imagine! This for one was not out of the norm when I didn't answer. He of course had to know exactly where I was and what I was doing. I finally answered and honestly can't remember all of what was said. I moved our stuff into my parents house and that was the first night Bekm did not wake up in the middle of the night. We could all tell that Bekm felt the calmness and safety of being at my parents house, as could I. This whole week was full of conversations about mine and DB's marriage and even though I had my mind made up about leaving, I'd give in at the end of the night and make him think id reconsider. This was just so I could get off the phone, go to bed and the next morning start it all over again with telling him is never come back. DB's mom watched Bekm while we were at work, so after he got off he'd go get him, spend time with him and return him to my parents when I got off work. This week with Bekm was the best week we had! We had so many cuddles, kisses, laughs and precious time together for his last week. I will never forget this week with him! Saturday night came and I told DB that while I was at work on Sunday, Bekm was going to stay with my parents and go to church with them. Even though we lived with them, they hardly ever saw Bekm because he was only there in the morning and again at night. Bekm spend the day with my family on Sunday while I was at work receiving phone calls at most 3 minutes apart. Some minutes id get 3 calls in one minute from DB. When I wasn't receiving calls, they were text messages. I called him back on my way home from work that Sunday and talked about things. All of a sudden, at the end of our conversation, he became very calm and asked where he could pick his son up the next day. I believe this is when he made his mind up on what his plan was going to be. The next day, as I was leaving for work, I gave my baby a big hug and kiss and told him I loved him. My dad, for some reason, was home from work that day and while my mom got some house work done, my dad took Bekm to the park and he swung in a swing for the first time. My dad even recorded it. This was the day my baby Bekm learned to fly :(